Somebody

Not in the mood for words today.

p.s. Almost like watching porn

Forget

I had wanted to do this later next week. But you know, things just happen. And I want to capture this before it gets diluted with the other little worries I will have later.

I have had 4 great years in college. And when I say great, I don’t just mean really good, it was out of this world. It is an experience I wouldn’t want to give away for anything. But I will say this now, loud and clear, that I think what I’ve got here, the true friends, they’re probably gonna stick around for a while. And I’m not the kind that would go sentimental. It’s just not me. But you know that feeling of getting choked up? Well, that kindda says it all. These guys are worth cherishing, and please God, give me strength to not fail the trust they place in me.

As of all great story, or chapter, there is always something which completes it but, not in a good way. You know what I mean? Like that friend you haven’t really talked to for 2 years because he’s being a prick. Or the friend who’s giving you the cold shoulder because you said something stupid like ‘I love you”. Or the friend that sort of back stabbed you while you’re busy looking out for fishes in the big pond. You know, those kind? That you wish you could just talk to them and tell them that you care, but you’d like them to just stop being a pain in the back.

I don’t know what it is, but I sincerely hope these people that I’ve lost would know, at the very least, that I’m sincerely sorry for all the bad things that I’ve done that made them so unhappy about me. And that I wish them the very best in their lives.

May I forget what ought to be forgotten; and recall, unfailingly, all that ought to be recalled, each kindly thing, forgetting what might sting ~ Mary Caroline Davies.

p.s. Will they just freaking stop playing Vitamin C’s Graduation? I’m in a middle of exams.

p.p.s. Ah don’t worry about the title, I meant to blog about something else but this just has to come out

2nd Gear

It has been a while, hasn’t it? They even changed the way the Dashboard looks, those people from WordPress. While I cannot say that many things have happened over the last few months, not really, neither can I say nothing has happened. But it’s that sort of attitude that keeps people guessing.

You know that song from Friends? Something about stuck on second gear. That pretty much sums up my life at the current state. This is ‘the’ defining moment of my life. I’ll graduate into the real world, and into debt. I’ll be officially jobless in 2 weeks time, and homeless in a month’s time. I’m single, and luckless in the love department. My total net worth is the $500 I have in my account. And I just found out this morning that I am TIME’s Person of The Year 2006.

I have been thinking, and I don’t usually do this. What is in store for me in the real world?